| i'm pretty sure the world would be 100% better without me...
The only thing holding me back is that I don't wanna piss off my mom by taking away the life insurance...
anyone feel like brutally murdering someone?
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| Holy... CRAP. it's almost been a year since i've been on here.... I'm such a loser. I say everyone switches back to old school xanga. ^.^
It's all the same old same old though. Still making my way through highschool with no friends, or the friends i do have just kinda ignore me.
And people should really stop saying that i'm not TRYING to make friends, because that's totally wrong. I've been accused and questioned of things that aren't fair...
I was told a long while ago that i'm "SUCH an awesome person" or "so cool!" and many times "i love you!!!"
...well, apparently no one thinks that anymore.
Friends are always out somewhere hanging out having fun with each other, while i sit at home and text someone who's in that group... Hoping they'd get the idea that i'm fucking lonely sitting at home while they're all out there enjoying themselves.
What's wrong with me? Why doesn't anyone want to fucking even be my friend anymore?
Then what's the point of being here?
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| I'm having a baby. It was an imaculate conception. I'm due wednesday. Does anyone want to adopt?
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| Alright, interesting day really. I was walking to school, and it was -9* outside. Not windy, just cold.
I ended up getting really bad hives on my legs and face... And apparently it screwed up my blood flow really bad. I was sitting at my homeroom table, and Ryan Hollihan came in and talked with me for 5 minutes. After those 5 minutes passed, I couldn't hear or see hardly anything, the only thing i could see was black outlines of things, otherwise, nothing. Ryan saw my face turn completely pale and said, "Ok, I'm taking you to the nurse's office NOW". So my first instinct was to stay sitting down so I wouldn't get any more dizzy, but I got up and followed him. I walked through the halls and bumped into [apparently it was hannah] a girl who called my name, I honestly couldn't even recognize the person from 3 feet away. I almost collapsed in the hallway if I hadn't hung onto the walls as I walked. I went into the nurse's office and sat down as soon as possible, Ryan said goodbye and the nurse asked me the normal questions, "Did you eat breakfast?", "Have you taken any medicine on an empty stomach?", "Have you been drinking water?".
I found out later, as soon as I was in the right state of mind, that it was because of my hives. I didn't want to try and explain it to her though. I haven't told my mom either, I just don't want her to freak out. I made the "responsible" decision to stay in school for the day and to continue on, even though I was still dizzy even after I had left the office.
I was able to make it back to homeroom, with about 20 minutes to spare and met up with Ryan before first hour and thanked him.
It was an interesting story that I told throughout the day. I figure only 3 or so people will be reading this, though it's quite embarrassing.
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| *sigh* Life is being more than fair to me lately. I just hope it's not building up to make my life miserable one day. Cause I don't want that right now. K thanks. I really want to get on the way to buying a car. I gotta do some hardcore saving... lol. or just work more. Hmm. I need a hugg |
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